The first situation that came to mind when I read this prompt was one in which I went beyond the "norm" sexually. I'd prefer to not share any detailed descriptions of the event, seeing as it's a rather private matter, but I will discuss the action and feelings that came along with it.
To start off, the action itself was certainly consentual however not intentional, exactly. It was not planned ahead of time or anything it just kind of happened in the moment on a whim. I remember at the time feeling slightly in question about what I was about to do, but never once thought of putting a stop to it. A part of me wanted to do it, but I think I was just really nervous about doing it. Now that I have done it I do not regret doing so because I feel like it is something I would have done eventually anyway. However, the fact that I did it still blows my mind to this day, and I will never do it again. I don't say this because of anything I suffered after the fact (which thankfully was nothing), but only because it's just something that was hard enough to bring myself to do in the first place and couldn't see myself wanting to do again. Kind of like sky diving. Many people do it once and cross it off their bucket list.
Looking back, if I had to do it all over again I would have done it all in the same exact way. I believe it is this specific situation that prevented me from getting in to any similar type situations in the future that could have potentially ended up being worse. And when I say worse, I don't mean that the situation itself was absolutely horrible. I just mean that if it would have been anyone else or anywhere else it could have potentially been a complete disaster. I think it is a good thing that this happened when it did (high school) so that I was better prepared and educated on how to react in certain situations where I may have felt trapped or obligated in a way. Not saying I did in that moment, but that moment prepared me for a lot of situations to come.
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